Hey fuckers! HAPPY NOVEMBER

-(written October 27th 2004)-

I was a little under the influence when I wrote that. haha. I have a whole bunch more stuff that I need to post.

TOUCH
-(written 10-22-04)-

Losing Touch
Touch with myself
I lost track of me
on that late night in January
it was a turning point
the new beginning

Everything was slow and limited
Only on the weekends
Then it became more constant
not just the weekends, the weekdays
1 day 3 night then up to a week
What possesed me to start to tweak

What have I done to get so deep
I never imagine myself to be like this
I was always the good girl with
the shitty attitude, Remember who I was?

What happend to me?
What happend to us?
My friends and I?
We used to be above ground
But now we have sunk under
How do we save us?

Rhiannon

Another day of procrastination. I need to get that book out of my bag. I see it everytime I go in my room but then I just never bring it back out with me. *hits self in the head*

I called Laura today, I wanted to see if Jessica was still at her house and she was. Jessica ran away from home I guess (not really sure) and well her parents havent even come looking for her. Isnt that sad? I thought so. I would be so upset if my parents didn't come looking for me. I would feel lost. I called Jessica's house to see if anyone was there so I could see if she was there just so see what her parents would say and nobody picked up. So I don't know. I'll just have to see whats gonna happen.

I have been clean for 6 days. and HAPPY HALLOWEEN! If you care. Im not doing anything this year. I dont really wanna go out I guess. Doesn't sound fun anymore. I never thought I would get bored of it.

I love the song that is playing on Mercedes site! Skye Sweetnam that girl is cool! I love her. Everyone should check her out.

Well I have nothing more to say.

Rhiannon

If someone else is with me and they are buying me stuff and they hold onto the money. I can spend money wisely. Now if I have money and I take it to my friends house with me or I go down to my moms house I spend it on dope. Why do I do that? I swear it takes over my mind.

Jacob broke my pipe on friday. Grr, i just got it to. He broke it while cleaning it at the park. Stupid ass. Mark blew it for me. I dont know how I am gonna get another one because all the retards i know dont blow pipes right. Mark blows them perfectly. fat bowls and they are thick to. Well not to thick but they are cool.

Jacob blew this one pipe for Laura one time and it had like 3 bubbles and it was fuken huge and stupid. haha. She loved it I thought it was hella gay haha. I hated hitten off of that thing. It was to big.

I need to get my book out of my bag but I haven't done that yet. I wanna put this poem that I wrote up on here but I am to damn lazy.

I have been clean for 5 days now!

Rhiannon

I was gone but now im back. My progress is. I haven't smoked since Monday. Aren't you proud. I have been clean for 4 days. So happy. I have spent $190.00 this month. I have only a few things to show for it. My parents have been asking me where my money is going but I dont know what to tell them, I just ignore them. Sometimes I fear that they aren't going to give me anymore money anymore. I will write more later. I have some stuff that I want to post.

Rhiannon